I gave myself the first year to gradually lose the weight. And turns out gradually losing the weight doesn’t just happen on its own. HA! oops. Lost 45lbs of the 60lbs real quick and then have just stayed the same weight fluctuating losing and gaining the same 5lbs for a long time now.
I imagined that with summer it would just magically fall off. But instead of embracing the fresh fruits and farmers market offerings associated with this season, I embraced Molly Moon’s Ice Cream. Instead of running around having fun in the sun, I laid in bed with my sweet baby enjoying cool shady afternoon naps.
I’d be lying if I said I was ok with it, that I’ve embraced my fluffy mommy body. I haven’t completely. I want to be fit! I want to be healthy and strong and live forever. I want to have the energy to keep up with my girls. And I know that if I really make that a priority I will get there. But I still feel cute. Is that arrogant? I just mean that I still take good care of myself. I’m just a little squishier than I’d like.
I succeed at the things that ARE really important to me though. And this past year weight loss just hasn’t been the thing I focused on the most. I’m not a super fit mom, I’m not a beautiful spotless home mom, I’m not a juggling work and 2 kids mom. But I was a success in a lot of ways this year. So while I still need to get in shape..here’s what I DID accomplish:
I didn’t start smoking again!
I started a blog (HA!) and kept great records of the past year and took tons of photos
My husband and I are closer than ever
I spent lots of quality time with both girls
I reached my breastfeeding goal of 12 months and am still going
I’ve done the Sling Diaries
I’ve gotten a lot better at understanding and being patient with Lucy
I grew out my hair!
Ok. so maybe this list isn’t quite as epic as I expected it to be. But whatever. The point is there right? I’m just saying that although I didn’t accomplish that one goal doesn’t mean I should feel bad. I DID accomplish lots of others.