I’ve decided that this summer will be my last summer of sharing Lucy’s life on facebook, instagram and even this blog. I may share the occasional family photo, or school portrait, but I knew I had to pick a time to no longer determine for her how the world will see her and what preconceived ideas they’ll have of her.
If she knows too much about herself through my perspective, I worry that she wont get to find herself on her own. She’ll read that she has always been bossy and believe it. And act accordingly. While I absolutely see the value in blogging and sharing online at some point she should share her own life and not through me. Imagine if my mom had a blog about me! That’d see pretty silly.
For me the line seems like kindergarten. The real start of her school career. From that point on there will be no foot print of every mistake she makes or any family memory made. She can remember things how she wants to. In her mind. And not from my eyes. Or camera. Yes I will continue to photograph her and have family photo albums she can look through 100 times. But it will be a bit more selective. No instagrams of her eating breakfast or in the grocery store. No facebook updates about how she has a cold.
Yes I will continue to write about Mila. And I will stop when mila is in kindgarten. I’m probably going to re-write this blog update 101 times and have links to it everywhere because a year from now no one will remember it and just think “god, jill wont shut up about mila and never mentions lucy!” But it’s because I want to offer them both some privacy. And this is the point I’ve decided to stop. So since this will be a hard habit to break and I dont want lucy to notice any change all of the sudden I’ll be slowly phasing out Lucy’s online presence. She’s in my next sling diary entry and I’m going to share parts of our summer. But no more public over analyzing of her. I hope this makes sense. Like i said, i’ll probably re write this 1000000 times so its more concise and clear.