the last grey week.

 Seattle is often mocked for its rain. People say things like “I don’t know how you live somewhere like that.” But there is no forecast I look forward too more than overcast. Spring snuck up on us and we had an uncharacteristically warm May. Then last weekend we were gifted with one more grey week before summer.
We decided to wake up super early Tuesday and get everyone ready and surprise the girls with a trip to the beach at 9am. Its amazing how you can go to the same park 101 times. But go there first thing in the morning when the city is still waking up. Or go there after dinner. Suddenly its a completely different experience.
We’ve been to Golden Gardens a ton of times. As a teenager I used to come here and drink 211 with my friends. In the summer, we come here for birthday parties and going away parties. But never have we gone to Golden Gardens on a grey day, when it’s sprinkling, first thing in the morning.

The moment we get there Lucy runs to the waters edge and stands there with her arms outstretched. My mom and I have looked back on photos of her doing this and always wondered, is she taking it all in or letting it all out? Mila is an indoor girl but is being a trooper snuggled up and layered, wrapped closely on my chest. And Justin and I soak in a rare quiet moment, to drink our coffee. Holding a conversation without interruption, we cant help but keep asking ourselves, “why don’t we do this every morning?”
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The Honest Company- Review

When I was pregnant with Mila I came across The Honest Co. on Facebook. I called Justin while he was at work supers stoked “BABE! SERIOUSLY! FAMILY FRIENDLY! ECO FRIENDLY! AND THERE ARE SKULLS ON THE DIAPERS! and If I’m not mistaken they deliver for free?” I kept having to re-read how it worked cause it was a little confusing. Did you pay for a years supply up front? what do you do if you run out of diapers? How do they know how many a months worth is? But I ordered the free trial and then was like. “Ok, so the soap smells like oranges and there are skulls on the diapers. cool.” but I still wasn’t completely sold. So I called and spoke to a customer service rep and got a ton of the answers I was looking for. Still get the sample sizes, the are awesome for the diaper bag.
For starters I was able to sign up for my first month right then (it was 3 months before Mila was born) Get that first shipment so I could organize them in the nursery and have them ready for her. But then she postponed my second shipment until 1 month after my due date.
The diaper bundle comes with 6 packs of diapers and 4 packs of wipes. Early on this lasted us 5 weeks. After the first few months it lasts us 6 weeks. You can adjust your bundle to ship whenever you want. We haven’t ever come close to running out too soon.
They have plenty of information about cost. and comparing them to other brands. I often see it compared by diaper or by week but I think that’s just confusing.

  •  6 packs of diapers and 4 packs of wipes that are store brand costs $46-$50
  •  6 packs of major brand (Pampers, Huggies, Etc.) diapers and 4 packs of wipes is $60-$70
  • 6 packs of Honest Co. Diapers and 4 packs of wipes is $80

That’s the bottom line. You will probably spend about $20 more a months. that’s like $5 a week. Or a latte. For non toxic, family friendly, eco friendly diapers that are gentle and fragrance free? Its worth $5 a week to us.

Now I will say the diapers are not as plush as pampers. Especially the pampers swaddlers that make me remember sweet newborn Lucy and make my heart burst. But even though they aren’t as soft, they work. We have only had a handful of “blow outs” in Mila’s 9 months of life so far.
The wipes suck. I’ll admit it. They stick together. It should be an Olympic event trying to get out just one wipe. But they are paraben free, biodegradable, hypoallergenic and have never irritated Mila’s very sensitive skin like even the store brand ones that are for sensitive skin have.
Also they are cute. And diapering sucks. I’ve considered clothe just because I love fluffy baby bums with plaid prints or the galaxy ones! The galaxy ones almost sold me. But now even those of us who have opted for disposable can pick out charming prints like leopard print or strawberries or hippos.

Of the family bundle items we have tried many but not all. They come out with new stuff faster then we can update our bundle choices. We always get the Multi Surface Cleaner and Laundry Detergent. We love the hand sanitizer! It could be our favorite of all the products. The massage oil smells yummy, is great for baby massage time. We use the sunscreen and the tangle spray. Lots of their products smell citrus fresh. Which is common in the eco friendly products since its a great natural fragrance option.  The hand soap smells like lemongrass and is very crisp and androgynous. The baby soap is nothing special but it works. We have never not liked what we picked out for our family bundle.

The diapers I love though. I am excited about this option. I love not having to have a baby showers worth of gifted diapers in all different sizes stuffed in a closet somewhere. I love that you can pick up to 6 different fun prints. And I love that it takes away a huge chunk of the guilt I have for not cloth diapering.
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  Oh I know. That meme, the one that’s like “Hey that photo of yourself you posted today looks exactly like the one you posted yesterday, and the day before that, and that day before that” always kinda makes my stomach turn when I see it cause I think ‘oh god I hope that’s not about me.’ It seems like all my photos are unintentional #babywearing #ringsling pictures. So much so that every time Justin raises the camera to take a photo of us I contemplate taking her out of her beloved slings just so I have a photo of us that isn’t “babywearing”.
 But this is the reality of our life. We walk everywhere. We eat out often. And if we leave the house, Mila is on my chest, in one of our slings. Especially if we go to a restaurant. The alternative is to bring a ziplock bag of cherrios or puffs and push her up against the table in a high chair and leave a 25% tip because for the next hour she is going to TEAR THIS PLACE APART! Or she can rest on me, nap as she pleases and we will all have an enjoyable eating experience. 
 Today we first walked to get thai but that was closed. Then our sushi place was closed. And we just kept walking til eventually we ended up at Gorditos. Which I craved so much during my first trimester I was almost afraid to eat any cause I’d get horrible flash back to morning sickness and never ending headaches. 
 Thankfully all I was reminded of was how fricken GOOOODDDD Gorditos is. It is the gem of Greenwood Ave. Dont ever change Gorditos. Your light, veggi heavy bright Mexican food is a refreshing change to the greasy, lard and cheese ridden chains. 









Liebster Award Part Deux

I say part deux because I already did one of these when I first started blogging, but I wasn’t exactly sure how it worked where as this time I think I got the hang of things. This is an award given to bloggers by other bloggers to support each other and help you branch out to other writer you may like to follow, or may want to follow you.
(requirements consist of naming your nominator and providing a link to that person’s blog, posting 11 facts about yourself, answering your nominator’s 11 questions, nominating 11 more bloggers, and creating 11 questions for those bloggers to answer)

I was nominated by Ruby of The Hippy Geek!

11 Facts about me:

  1. The farthest I’ve ever traveled is Germany. My friend had to practically put me in a drug induced coma to get me on the planes.
  2. I didn’t go to college. I wish I had. Not for the education or job potential. But I watch shows like Felicity and wonder what it would have been like to be out on my own like that in a different city, living in a dorm.
  3. The first, and only, car I owned was a 1962 falcon. Too bad I never learned to drive. We sold it to a dad who was going to be surprising his daughter on her 16th birthday with it.
  4. When I was 15-19 I booked and promoted punk/psychobilly/rockabilly shows. So many ulcers. Horrible job. Bookers probably live short lives.
  5. I have my first husbands nickname tattooed on my upper arm. whoops.
  6. I went to a non graded co-op school for kindergarten through junior high.
  7. I wish my name was Beatrice.
  8. I’m brazilian/russian/anglo-saxon.
  9. I was pregnant on my 21st birthday.
  10. I used to be vegan.
  11. I got pre-eclampsia with both of my girls.

My 11 Questions from Ruby

1. Who was your childhood hero? Mary Kate Olsen (still is.)
2. Who would win in a fight: Cthulhu or the behemoth? I had to google that. still not sure.
3. Tell me about your most memorable teacher? BILL! My 1st-3rd grade teacher. Who actually lived with us for a while and spent Christmas with us. He’s artistic and funny and made my mom happy. NOT LIKE THAT. He’s gay and she’s a lesbian soo…
4. What was your favourite age? 26. I am having a great year!!!
5. What happened on your 10th birthday? The theme was “Now and Then” which was my favorite movie so we had a 1960’s themed slumber party. We made purses out of old jeans. And drank soda out of glass bottles and my aunt read our fortunes with tarot cards…ooohhh spooookky.
6. What does your sock drawer say about you as a person? I wish people knew how much leopard print and black lace was under all these doubty oversized layers of clothing. haha! Also I almost never wear socks.
7. Paper books or ebooks? Why? PAPER! I get migraines from looking at screens.
8. If you could be a book character, who would it be? Holly GoLightly.
9. Describe yourself in five words or less? always a woman.
10. How do you take your tea? GINGER. PLAIN.
11. What classic novel do you wish you’d actually read as a child?

My 11 Questions to my nominees

1. Which relative do you have the most in common with?
2. What is your favorite song lyric?
3. What is your favorite, family friendly, movie?
4. If you could be in the Olympics for any sport, which event would it be?
5. What is your favorite month and why?
6. What was the worst job you ever had?
7. If you could pick a different name for yourself what would it be?
8. What day in your life do you wish you could relive?
9. What do you love most in your spouse, of if single, what do you look for in a partner?
10. What food do you eat most often?
11. What is your favorite luxury item that you buy yourself?

I nominate:

1. Sarah from A Girl in Transit.
2. Melissa from Ezactly.
3. Wendy from CariBirth.
4. Bridgid from Naturally Attached.
5. Slingaholic Mama from Slingaholic.
6. Haley from Life is Sweet.
7. Kelly Rae from Foxes in the Graveyard.
8. Lydia from Lyds Was Here.
9. Claire from Born and Raised.
10. Alixandra from Dear Darling Baby.
11. Hannah from Krustee.

Sling Diaries- Memory

I had one of those ideal childhoods. I grew up in Edmonds, a sweet beachy suburb just 20 minutes north of Seattle. I spent my summers writing my name in the sand, tie dying t-shirts at day camp, and playing with American Girl Dolls. We’d at least once a year go as a family to Cannon Beach or the Oregon Coast where my sister and I ran around collecting sea glass for my mom and ate salt water taffy we’d bought at an old timey candy shop. I feel so fortunate to have had the childhood my parents gave me.

I know there were bad moments hidden in all that joy somewhere. But those were never the memories I clung to. I have always looked back on, and identified with, the best times in my life.

Last week, we all went to the waterfront. I planned every detail. I had hopes of getting downtown early enough to miss the crowd getting on the ferris wheel, and then we’d ride the carousel and stop to watch the ships come in. Instead, it took us forever to find parking and Mila was super cranky when she woke up from her nap. Then Lucy got her heart set on some tiger stuffed animal in one of those machines with the claws and we didn’t want to spend $75 trying to win it. We threw in the towel and headed back home.

When we got home we were all famished and decided to walk to Dick’s Drive-In. Lucy already seemed over the stuffed animal crisis and was back to her usual spirited self. Frolicking and twirling around the trail as the rest of us walk.

As we sat there on the curb passing fries, Justin told us the story of the night Mila was born and how he came here while I was in labor and wanted everyone to “just leave me alone”. I then shared my own memories of being a no-good teenager coming here late at night with my friends as Lucy swiped bites of my burger. Mila manages to pop one arm out of her sling and starts grabbing at my food so I distract her with a straw to play with. I love when our family feels like a well oiled machine. Passing this, sharing that, and knowing exactly what to do to keep Mila content.

  These weren’t the memories I had planned on making. Still, I wont look back on this day and feel let down. I’m not going to remember parking lots or tantrums. I’ll remember laughing. And sharing. I’ll remember Lucy singing, loudly, as we all walked down the trail. And Mila giggling as I kiss her tiny hands. Instead of remembering our adventure to the waterfront, this day will be stored away in my memories as Mila’s first trip to Dick’s Drive-In.



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This post is a part of the Sakura Bloom Sling Diaries.

Sakura Bloom Guide

I decided to make this video showing the three main types of ring slings sakura bloom sells. I don’t work for the company, they didn’t ask me to make this, actually it was another mom, Emily from 9 months & Beyond who did 🙂 which is awesome and super flattering. I mega failed at using woven wraps and sucked at back carries so feeling like an ‘expert’ at ring slings has made my night!! Please excuse Justin’s, PANT-LESS reflection in my glasses 😉 haha.

I hope this is helpful. And again this is just to help those who have already decided they want to try a sakura bloom and now want advice on which one to get.

My last lucy entry

 I’ve decided that this summer will be my last summer of sharing Lucy’s life on facebook, instagram and even this blog. I may share the occasional family photo, or school portrait, but I knew I had to pick a time to no longer determine for her how the world will see her and what preconceived ideas they’ll have of her.
 If she knows too much about herself through my perspective, I worry that she wont get to find herself on her own. She’ll read that she has always been bossy and believe it. And act accordingly. While I absolutely see the value in blogging and sharing online at some point she should share her own life and not through me. Imagine if my mom had a blog about me! That’d see pretty silly. 
 For me the line seems like kindergarten. The real start of her school career. From that point on there will be no foot print of every mistake she makes or any family memory made. She can remember things how she wants to. In her mind. And not from my eyes. Or camera. Yes I will continue to photograph her and have family photo albums she can look through 100 times. But it will be a bit more selective. No instagrams of her eating breakfast or in the grocery store. No facebook updates about how she has a cold. 

Yes I will continue to write about Mila. And I will stop when mila is in kindgarten. I’m probably going to re-write this blog update 101 times and have links to it everywhere because a year from now no one will remember it and just think “god, jill wont shut up about mila and never mentions lucy!” But it’s because I want to offer them both some privacy. And this is the point I’ve decided to stop. So since this will be a hard habit to break and I dont want lucy to notice any change all of the sudden I’ll be slowly phasing out Lucy’s online presence. She’s in my next sling diary entry and I’m going to share parts of our summer. But no more public over analyzing of her. I hope this makes sense. Like i said, i’ll probably re write this 1000000 times so its more concise and clear.