So I got this jacket. Not too sure about it. I think I’d like it more if it were an area rug or baby blanket. Am I the only one having a seriously hard time finding the balance of not wanting to just look like a “mom” while also wanting to look like a mom.Ok that didn’t make sense. What I mean is just that I dont want to lose my personal sense of style. But I also dont like being asked if I’m the baby sitter. Im having the hardest time knowing what to wear. For starters I’m 15lbs heavier then pre-mila. So my old clothes either don’t fit or fit the wrong way. And the other half of my closet is maternity clothes that either are massively huge on me, or make me look like I’m still pregnant. Then add that I need constant easy access to my breasts because Mila nurses on demand and only straight from the source. And that alone is a perfect storm for having “NOTHING TO WEAR!!!”.
But then I also have the identity crisis, age denial factor. Half of me sees myself as this cool, urban mom, with tattoos. ‘My bartender husband and I listen to music you’ve never heard of on vinyl.’ And that’s all fine and dandy until you get to the park and some woman asks “did her family find you through a nanny agency or did you already know them?”.
I want people to know these are my girls. And yes they were planned. And yes I’m married. Not that it’s anyone’s business but unless you’ve been a young-ish mom and had people ask you those ridiculous questions you have no idea how bad it sucks. So I want to fit in. I want to look like all the other moms. But then the Old Navy clothing order arrives. I try it all on and just stand in the mirror and think “how did I let this happen to me”.
I have friends who pull it off. That awesome balance between your pre and post baby lives. Embracing your new mom body the right way by dressing for it not against it. Looking a little subculture, but not like a 16 year old trying to piss off her parents. Like a mom, but not the kind of mom who’s husband is cheating on her with his secretary. But I still haven’t managed to figure it out. So if there is some super secret store out there (forever 29? j.crew for less?) please share.